From Feeling Out of Control To Living A Full Life
Undiagnosed as a child, I struggled with anxiety my whole life, and things got worse in high school and college. During that time, I was hospitalized twice for anxiety attacks that exhibited hyperventilation, spastic muscle rigidity, with severe neck and chest pain. I was scared, not knowing what was happening to my body, I felt out of control and disconnected. The medical community worked me up, telling me I might have meningitis, blood clot, and/or heart conditions. The diagnosis and treatments felt invasive and only intensified my fear. Pushing through with steady perseverance, family support, and devoted friends, I managed
Sleep - Please?
“Where’s the thermometer?” I asked my husband while stuffing my pajamas in a suitcase and mentally packing our kid’s lunches. There wasn’t much time before my ferry left and there was so much left to do! After holding still for fifteen seconds, a green light flashed, announcing my 98.6 degree temperature. I was thinking, “Huh? I am healthy? No fever?” Except for my head ache, sore throat, mouth ulcers, lethargy and crankiness belied something was going on. However, it did mean I could indeed still attend Five Element Yoga and Divine Sleep Yoga Nidra retreat at Kripalu Center in the
How To Catch Up On Rest!
I found myself overwhelmed, stressed, overextended as well as plain old tired of being tired! I said ‘yes’ to too many things. I did not always recognize my body’s signals telling me to rest. I was pushing through, yet in my head seemed to be saying something like ‘just one more thing to complete’ and ‘I’ll rest when I’m dead’. Then I realized, there was a big difference between the two! I needed to restore myself. I needed rest. Originally, I had begun practicing yoga about sixteen years ago when I moved to the Berkshires. Without knowing anyone there, I
I Shifted My Attention to the Positive Route
I woke up one day in 2012 to find myself mysteriously unable to walk in severe whole body pain that did not go away. At the time, I could have accepted the diagnosis of ‘fibromyalgia’, resigning myself to living a life with the limitations of what has been called ‘an incurable condition.’ (fibromyalgia is a chronic pain condition accompanied by fatigue, insomnia, gastrointestinal, memory and mood symptoms). In fact, at the time, I could not even walk. Without answers from top medical experts, I dedicated my life to healing myself. I made a different choice - I shifted all of
'Ask' and I Received!
My marriage fell apart. I had two teenage children and it was a difficult and very painful time. I examined and re-examined every detail of the divorce and the events that led up to it. I had trouble sleeping and suffered from insomnia, with a recurring nightmare of losing my pocketbook, which to me represented losing my identity. As a child I could not stop moving! I tumbled, cartwheeled, and flipped wherever I was. There was such joy in movement. As I got older, my free play morphed into cheerleading, dance, aerobics, jazzercise, pilates and yoga. I was known as
My Personal Transformation with Divine Sleep Yoga Nidra
Before practicing yoga nidra, I struggled to find work life balance. I was commuting two hours a day to work, working a full-time job, as well as being a busy mom raising two daughters – both of them training in dance - with a husband who traveled frequently for work. I felt I needed to be able to deeply relax and let go of the stress that I was under if I was to be able to continue the pace. I struggled with finding a way to meditate or feel like I was doing it properly since my mind was
Air Traffic Controller Turned Divine Sleep Guide!
One of the five top most stressful jobs is considered to be an air traffic controller. Requiring total concentration to maintain the flow of aircraft in and out of airports controlling air traffic is key to aviation safety. At times its required to work more than 40 hour days and retirement is usually mandatory at age 56. Having worked and lived as an air traffic controller for over 25 years, I can tell you first-hand what this type of stress has done to my body on a normal day, and how that increased during the menopausal years! After being in
Calmness In My Daily Routine
Before I practiced yoga, I frequently found myself physically tense and mentally stressed, whether hunched over a computer screen or lying in bed struggling with insomnia. When an opportunity arose for me to visit Kripalu, Jennifer’s Yoga and Deep Relaxation Retreat seemed like a good opportunity to introduce myself to yoga generally, as well as to address my insomnia and stress-related tensions. I’d never had any exposure to yoga of any sort, but luckily, Jennifer’s program, and particularly her specialties of Divine Sleep Yoga Nidra and Five Element Yoga, proved to be perfectly tailored for me. While I continued to
I Felt So Embraced with Divine Sleep
This past year was one of the most challenging of my life thus far. I lost two very dear friends to cancer, and had breast cancer myself including a mastectomy. I also separated from the father of my two children. I was healing physically and mentally, but very slowly… slower than I wanted to. Attending a yoga retreat was something that had been on my wish list for many years. When an available window opened up this past August, I grabbed it as my opportunity to go to Kripalu. I signed up for Jennifer's retreat not knowing what to expect.
Through Difficulty, I Found Joy with Yoga & Meditation
After going through several family deaths, including my parents’, I felt very lonely and sad. I cannot explain the depth of sadness I experienced for many years. I had a constant sensation of pain in my heart, and a hollowness in my chest. Not only did I lose four family members in a five year period, but I also lost my whole country – my husband, our two children and I moved to the US in 2005. Life as an immigrant has not been easy. I use to feel very isolated and also insecure about the future, then